They say that when a woman decides to commit to a man ceremonially, that he is in so many ways a replica of her father. They also say that a man chooses his new Queen based on the respected goddess ruler of his world. I believe this is so true, and while I dont really see the application on my end, I know its there. A bit more obvious is why my husband chose me as his Queen a decade ago.
When I met his mother, I knew it was a match made in heaven on Earth. She was an artist, a seamstress, and a had a brilliantly bright mind, different from anyone I'd ever met. She touched everyone she met in a certain kind of way, and her generosity and love illuminated in just about every move she made... She was definitely special. We connected immediately and I knew that if this man honored this woman in that special way that he did, that he was the man that would likewise honor me in the same way. I had no idea that his thoughts were very similar.
At the time, I couldn't see what was very obvious to others. He loved me for me, yes.. But he was drawn to the similarities in positive (and some not-so-positive) qualities that reminded him of home. Of his mother. What I did know was that I was in complete love with my mother in law. It wasn't until this time of year, exactly 3 years and one month ago that I realized how true it is.. A man marries his mother. While I know I have many years to reach even a portion of her reverence, it's an amazing feeling to reflect on the beautiful woman she was and know that I was once chosen based on the potential of those same amazing qualities. And that somehow, through me and my seeds, her memory can live on.
I miss your light so much Audrea.
